bummer :<

we are made to lose the ones we love. if not, how else can we see their worth? -from the curious case of benjamin button

we are stucked at home for 5 days ) great. what makes this better is that, dr suarez confiscated our phones. HAHA. this is heaven– NOT. )

ayun, wala kaming pasok until friday. wala rin kaming gk this saturday kasi hindi namin schedule. ewan ko lang ang chamber, please Lord. sana meron in case hindi umuulan nun >.< i wanna go out of the house alreadyyyy.

this is all because of bagyong ondoy. sana, sana lang talaga, marescue na yung mga hindi pa narerescue. lalo na yung may mga kasamang infants at old people >.< as much as i want to help, hindi ako makalabas ng bahay. tutulong na lang ako through our school 6 liters of waterrrr

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ano kayang pwede gawin until friday? nakakatamad magunli ngayon kasi mga walang phones mostly yung mga kaibigan ko. konti lang yung may extra phone. wala rin masyado nag-OL. hay, kamusta naman yun. movie marathon til friday? baka maubos ko na lahat ng movies dito )

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oh well, i’ll update as soon as something interesting comes up

stay safe, readers.

space.

naisip mo na ba kung pano kung hindi nauso ang space sa mundo?

space, as in sa kahit anong paraan.. sa pagttype, sa relasyon, sa matter. basta space. diba nakakasira ng ulo yun?

imagineninmoah,panokungganitomagtypelahatngtao.shit,bakaluwanamatakokababasahindikoparinmatataposangisanglibro.

that sucks. kaya thank God nauso ang space:)

pero ewan, napaisip lang talaga ko. kailangan ng space diba? bakit kaya minsan, kahit alam nating we need space, hindi natin to nabibigay sa dapat nating pagbigyan. and things end up with “nasasakal na ako” or “i just need space”. tsk, pano ba natin masusukat yung tamang amount ng space? tsk

wala lang. naisip ko lang bigla )

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pagpasensiyahan, minsan lang ako makapagblog

late night post. :)) very unusual :>

may mga tao lang talaga na magpaparealize sayo

at some point

that though the heart is broken,

one must not stop living.

…at wag raw ako emo. so, ewan. random thoughts mode.

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pakiramdam ko kailangan ko na ng libro. yung hindi required ng school, wala lang. to lighten things up. pagod na ko eh and i want pasta )

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waaaaaaaaaa. ewan ko na talaga. mahirap kalaban ang hindi mo alam diba? kasi, ewan. mas madali kalaban yung makikita mo, yung alam mo. sa tingin mo, bakit maraming galit sa math? kasi diba, hindi nila ma-gets. i guess that’s the same concept. hindi mo kasi mahanapan ng proof o ng reason bakit ganito o bakit ganiyan. kung ganito ba o ganon, diba? mahirap lang talaga. kasi kahit gano mo pilitin yung utak mo na intindihin at gumawa ng paraan para masolusyunan yung feeling o yung bagay na yun. wala eh, tuyo na ang tubig mo sa utak, wala pa rin, kasi nga hindi mo alam.

nakakasira ng ulo yung feeling na wala kang pinanghahawakan. plus idagdag mo pa na mahirap kalaban ang hindi mo alam. POOOOOOOF. wala na. sabaw na utak ko pero wala, sus. think positive raw and though i’m not sure what to believe in, dapat maniwala ako sa ikasasaya ko para kahit naman sa paniniwala ko na lang sumaya ako.. –’kay. emo.–

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last na talaga to. other than this, i wont accept commitments. nakakapagod mag-effort eh.

wala lang.  napaghahalataang di ako masaya sa trabaho eh no? )

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“just remember this:

a soldier will never learn to like killing people.

he makes himself believe he love it, to hide his disgust at war”

quote lang, walang kokontra. right, best friend? =))

catharsis

i hope this blog post helps

i need an outlet. i guess these things are bugging me for a long time already. whatever is said here, please, let it stay here. i’m not blaming anyone or anything. i just need an outlet and this blog post is made for expression and nothing else. if you guys have comments, IM me or just leave a comment. i won’t eat you. swear )

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sobrang badtrip talaga na hindi ko siya nakita kahapon. i know na sobrang babaw nito. pero alam mo yun? i’ve been waiting for that. gustong gusto ko na siyang makausap ng matino. or kahit makasama ko lang ng 10mins. pero hindi pa rin eh. kasi i’m too blocked by the school works and what’s worst, kapag pumunta siya, hindi ko man lang siya mabigyan ng kahit 5mins. alam mo yun? you want to give that person everything and you know it will make you happy, but you can’t dahil alam mong pag ginawa mo yun you’l be labeled “Selfish” and “malandi” and makakarinig ka ng “school day na school day..” or “PM ka pa naman tapos..” or “head ka pa naman tapos..” alam mo yun? alam mong hindi mo pwedeng ibigay kasi ayan nga. i want to be happy, kahit 10 mins lang. masaya na ko dun. kaso hindi talaga eh. laging taliwas ang schedule namin

masakit dun.. kasi siya na nga yung nag-eexert ng effort na pumunta just to see me. tapos hindi ko pa siya makausap ng matino. nakakaguilty kasi, ever since this relationship.. i mean, that relationship began. siya yung todo mag-effort. and i really feel bad about it. if he only knows how much i cry when i miss him. or kung gano ko siya gusto makasama.. kaya lang hindi ko alam kung anong effort ang dapat ko gawin. i just want to be with him. give him all the hugs and innocent kisses he deserves.

if only i could time travel, i’d go back to the time na okay kami. i’d give more effort for him. i’d be more sweet and more caring. i’d be more expressive about my feelings..

i’d stay there forever.

but the thing is….

I can’t

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i feel super tired and pressured. sobrang ewan ko, pero i feel like atlas. pakiramdam ko the whole world is upon my back. pero exage yun. bottomline is, napapagod na ko. parang sobrang dami nang pinapagawa samin. oo, reklamo to. pero wth, kahit naman magreklamo ako dito sa blog ko nagttrabaho pa rin ako. i need to. I NEED TO GRADUATE. ayoko na sa highschool! nakakamiss lang yung last year. oo hindi ako kasing petix last year kesa nung freshman at sophomore ako, pero pakiramdam ko kasi, the load is twice nung load namin last year. sobrang, ewan. na-shock rin talaga ko na sobrang riot-ey ng load namin this year. good Lord, help me get through with this. i really want to graduate highschool.

gusto ko nang magreject ng commitments, but then again. i can’t. ewan ko. lalo na pag hindi assigned ng students. potek. if only i could say no. mas gusto ko rin maging follower no. mas less yung pagod. pero hindi pwede eh gusto ko rin naman yung feeling na hindi ako nag-uutos. yung totoo, minsan nakakahiya na mag-assign ng trabaho to certain people. pakiramdam ko naiinis na sila sakin and i’m being labeled as bossy already. masakit, pero hindi pwedeng hindi eh. i’d kill myself kung hindi ko ipapagawa sa iba. sana lang, malaman rin nila yung side ko. alam kong hindi masama magreklamo, but too much of everything is bad diba? please take note of this: geca is still human. napapagod, nabobobo, nagkakamali at nagnanais sumaya.

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i’m doing better in math. and i guess, may bagay pa na mas mahirap intindihin kesa sa math.

ewan ko ah. pero ewan ko lang talaga. i’m being too.. self centered. HAHA. hindi ito. joke lang to. i just miss him. that’s all

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sobrang patong patong na yung gusto/kailangan ko basahin.

here’s a list

• purgatorio (priority) –report namin to and wth, hindi pa ko nagsisimula. i better read the notes already O.o hindi ko na muna babasahin yung poem version. tsk, i gotta finish this kakausapin ko pa yung kabilang group na purgatorio rin ang report
• inferno - nasimulan ko na. i just have to finish this someday :>
• paradiso –para kumpleto ko divine comedy. HAHA bakit ba, i’m such a book worm, you know
• les miserables –school purposes at nakakaaliw rin yung story sana lang magandang version yung mabili ko diba?
• dekada ‘70 –school requirement. plus it’s another lualhati bautista, right? i heart lualhati, gusto ko yung style nia ng pagsulat ewan ko ah. gapo poked my heart. para kasing ang realistic niya at the same time optimistic basta, i wanted to read this long before i knew na kelangan siya for school
• bata, bata, pano ka ginawa? –another lualhati bautista novel
• the winner stands alone, paolo coelho — bagong release pa lang to sa pilipinas gusto ko na to basahin. tae, nung nakita ko to sa national ng moa, pikon na pikon akong di ako nagdala ng wallet. i learned my lesson, nagdadala na ko palagi ng wallet, in case may magandang librong must read.
• by the river piedra…
• the alchemist
• the devil and miss prym [spelling?]
• and other coelho novels. –halata? i love coelho. i don’t think i need more reasons
• can you keep a secret?, sophie kinsela — kinsela is another love. napanood ko yung confessions of a shopaholic. i loved the movie. i’m sure mas mamahalin ko pa yung book.
• confessions. –kinsela still
• domestic goddess [or something like it] –kinsela
• twilight saga, stephenie meyer – oha, natapos na ang twilight movie at parating na ang new moon hindi ko pa rin nababasa to. HAHA i suck. =)) sabi kasi wag raw basahin ng heart broken kaya ngayon ko lang nagustuhan basahin.
• The Host, meyer –alienss!!!! XD )
• para kay B, ricky lee — naiintriga ako. iman loved this book feeling ko magugustuhan ko rin.

marami pa to. sobrang dami pa. nakakasira ng ulo kapag sinulat ko lahat. ito yung nasa top. kasi ito ang naaalala ko eh. =))

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i’m currently broke. sobrang wala na kong pera at gusto ko pang ipa-gMask yung cp ko. warra, kamusta naman diba, i have to buy dekada and les mis. so that’s more than 300. tapos gifts pa for niquey and cheska and danealle grabe september is draining every centavo i have i should go to SM tomorrow, hanggang 20 lang ang sale! omfg.

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do you think i can handle this? malapit na ko sumuko. for once, i want to be happy. kahit isang buong araw lang.

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guess what, i cried while making this post

you are sent to…

The Dante’s Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very High
Level 1 – Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	High
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Low
Level 6 – The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Moderate
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 – Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very Low

Take the Dante’s Inferno Hell Test

lmao. HAHAHA. di pa ko pinadala sa paradise XD

wishlist! :))

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANJELA MARIE VIOLA DULAY

…and jessa villanueva

…and james ricohermoso

…and jasper damot )

at dahil diyan.. naisipan kong isulat ang wishlist ko for christmas =)) pagbigyan.. gagawa na ko ng report pagkatapos nito. PROMISE =))

Parker Mechanical pencil- oo parker =)) hindi ko kasi sure kung may cross na mech pen =)) gusto ko orange or white tapos nakaengrave yung name ko. mas inspiring kasi mag-aral pag mech pen gamit. tested and proven to, i get good grades when i’m using mech pen pang solve sa scratch pag nag-aaral

twilight set- wala pa rin ako nito eh. Since wala na naman sigurong “out of stock” na mangyayari ngayon kasi hindi na masyadong super in demand ang twilight. basahin ko na rin siguro HAHA. i guess my wallet really hates books. lagi siyang naddrain pag libro na kaharap niya eh=))

meyer books- say hi “the host” =)

Lois Lowry Set- The Giver was great, so i guess other novels from him are great too :>

Coelho Set- (minus veronika decides to die and Brida) favorite author, no explanations needed.

Albom novels- one of the favorite authors too. do i need to explain?

Penguin Stuff Toys - cute sila eh. so ayun.. ganun talaga, i’m addicted to them i guess )

Photoshop CS4 installer – tama ako diba? may CS4 na? if not edi CS3

laptop. kahit ano basa gumagana! =))

Badtz Maru Items

More books? =))

brown case for my LG cookie kasi it looks like bronze, knowing me, i am a total magpie. i am attracted to anything shiny/sparkly/metallic:))

books =)) masaya na talaga ako sa libro. HAHAHA

to be continued. HAHAHA

happy birthday celebrants!:)

do you know what day it is?

it’s the fourteenth, i hope you’re happy.

i miss you.

–supposed to be 1 year and 7 months:)

=) </3

it’s finally over. all the night practices and early morning rehearsals english play is over.

next stop: fil play. pero malayo pa. =))

…joke. yung himig chorale pala? or whatever it’s called

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wala lang. i feel very odd this past days. epekto lang siguro to ng pagod or something, pero hindi eh. siguro ganito lang talaga, kapag nakita mong umalis yung isang tao papalayo sayo. then suddenly, you saw him… again. ang weird ng feeling. there’s this happiness pero andun din yung fear na he might walk away again at yung doubt kung ako pa nga ba talaga. things change, pero i guess, whatever i have right now, yun na yun. i should be happy. and i guess i am.

whatever happens, happens for a reason diba?

ily still.

here’s to tawi.

sorry kung naging mataray ako sainyo. sorry kung may nasabi akong masama. sorry kung sumama yung loob ko sainyo. sorry, hindi ko lang kasi talaga ineexpect na ganon ang mangyayari. masakit.

sorry kung hindi na ko kumikilos. sorry kung ayoko na magtrabaho. ayoko na eh. napapagod na rin ako. sana maintindihan niyo. tao rin ako, like what i always say.

sana hindi na to mangyayari sa susunod. sana hindi niyo iparamdam to sa susunod niyong PM o sa mga leaders niyo. sana

i’d still work with you pero tulad niyo, i won’t exert much effort anymore. hindi kasi fair diba? some people are exerting effort and some are not. so dapat pantay pantay na lang lahat. papantayan ko na lang lahat ng binibigay niyo sa class presentations. that’s the least i could do to balance things out.

tawi, sorry for being a bad PM.

i just can’t handle you. you guys are too much of a load for me.

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